I believe I may have found a Mistress to teach me more about how to be submissive. I am excited and depressed about it all at the same time. I actually met her through this website!

I am excited because really understand me...she was submissive her whole life and now feels dominant while I was dominant all my life and now feel submissive. So we both understand where we are coming from. We are able to talk "outside" the box of the Mistress/Slave relationship. She can tell me that she is nervous to take me a slave because I used to be a Master. She does not know if she is being a proper Mistress. And I can tell her how I feel in return. But she is always Mistress X no matter how we talk.

I am depressed because she lives across the country, which is 3 times later than me. Plus, she has a SO. So between the time zone differences and both of us not having total freedom to go on line when we want, we are finding it very difficult to get online together. This is a crucial stage in our relationship and I feel like we are missing many important moments together.

However, I cannot complain. At least I found a Mistress who is willing to work with me as we both explore this crazy BDSM world.